The language of Nalanda's heart

LOVE OF MINE… This is how I guess one feels the 1st time a person falls in love or has a crush on someone…

Love is a darting eye,
No one can tell you when it happens & why?
It is blind inspite of having eyes,
You must know how much place it occupies?
It is expressed in different ways to different people too…
You must have an understanding heart,
To know that the persons love for you is true.
When you just fall in love,
You start fluttering like a dove.
It is like a blooming flower
Like a chirping bird too
It is difficult to stay far away
Whose truly loved you.
Faith along with caring & sharing
Does go hand in hand with love & tolerating
Tell me what to do
For I cannot live without you
Please try to understand me
My love for you is true.

THE BAD THING FOR GOOD… The following poem describes the mental state of the youth when betrayed by his own lady love…one should be calm & never lose the focus on life…

You broke my heart
And played with my sentiments
You had a great start
With great ideas & developments
That’s the way I think…
But my heart really sinks,
When I think of it in another way –
I understand my mistake & start running away.
It will take time to settle
This feeling according to my will.
It’s no use of being friends,
Cause in no time it shall end.
I have made up my mind –
To study hard & be kind!!!

NATURE… A poem in the name of the beautiful nature…that overwhelmed my heart & soul…

The nature is so beautiful,
It keeps us fresh & cheerful!
The dazzling Sun in the blue sky,
And the colourful butterflies,
The high high mountains
And the shower of fountains.
The trickling valley
Attracts us to see them willingly -
The colourful flowers,
So pleasing to see – The rains & showers.
So many people destroy nature,
We must save the nature & think about the future.
It is so wonderful & bright!
It almost creates a beautiful sight!!

A MESSAGE… I ponder my existence when the great Lord has given us an abundance of everything in life…

God helps us in every field
And gives us in great deal.
But what do we do?
To make Him proud & happy too?
We don’t understand the value of our life –
To do the best & to strive.
He has created everyone
For a different job to be carried on.
We must try to achieve our goal
And carry on the work which is told.
There are endless jobs to do on this Earth
Which will not be complete within thousands of birth.

CRICKET… This is a small lesson that I learnt from the game cricket…

Cricket is a lovely game
And life is just the very same.
You can learn so much from it!
To keep good health & mentally fit.
You can get so many inspirations
And guidance to help in tough situations.
The right thinking to choose
The tolerance to lose
The courage to hit every shot
To control yourself when you have lost.
Never to cheat & win a game,
One must always beat till the very end.
There are some teams best created
They must be truly appreciated.
While others should get a chance
To do their best well in advance

THE BROTHERS RELATION… In the memory of my rakhi brother…

Some others become brothers
Due to the heart-to-heart relation
But some take it for granted & their satisfaction.
However the relationship is so strong,
It’s quite warm & lasts for long.
There are so many difficulties to go through
But this helping person is really true.
He guides you & accompanies you
Through thick & thin & through difficulties too.
Such is a relation of a brother is about
Which no person in the world can ever doubt.

A BEST FRIEND… My feelings to every friend of mine…

Who is this person who helps you about?
And trusts you above all and has no doubt.
The one who lends a shoulder on a stormy night,
The one whose on your side, when all are against you to fight.
There are misunderstandings in the long run,
But in no time do we solve it & together we have fun.
The person is none other than a friend!
If the friendship is true it shall never end!!

CHARACTER… The importance of inculcating & sustaining character & morale

It is possessed by everyone –
Without it you are no one.
It is not man made,
Nor does it fade,
It’s just the character
You potray!
Everyone have their own
Unique characters to be shown.
Good or bad,
Whatever it may be?
Try to change into the best character you ever see!
Get in the quality of love,
Like 2 birds flying above.
Just break out free,
From the sting of the evil bee.
Live together with one another
In one great family.

STRUGGLE IN LIFE… The importance of struggling each day with a smiling face in every phase of life…

You are a body combined with soul,
You have a life full of goals.
There are so many obstacles on the way,
Just don’t try to run away!!
Face it with your full determination.
In no time you shall reach your destination.
Put in your effort & hardwork regularly,
You shall hardly have any difficulty.
One must set a good aim
And succeed in it smilingly without any vain.
Make use of every opportunity in life –
Who knows one would have to struggle hard to strive.

GOD… People say there is one GOD but in a secular country like ours the concept behind GOD & Religion is still fizzled…

There is one GOD in the world,
That’s what our ancestors had told.
Today we know GOD in different forms
Which creates great thunder & storm!!
It is this point of difference on which people fight.
GOD is ashamed to see the sight.
Who is this Jesus, is he the Lord?
Who is this Allah just above all?
Lord Buddha & Krishna who are they?
Strong foundations of life did they lay…
We must always respect & value all the preachings that they say.

TEACHER… Many times we take our teachers for granted but do not realize how important they are in carving & moulding our lives…

The first day in school as child we step,
Our teacher is the one who tries to help.
She is the one who imparts knowledge to us,
She is the one to lead us to our destination above!
When we do wrong she punishes,
But in her prayers she gives good wishes,
Her happiness lies in the student’s progress,
The concept must be enlightened with happiness.
She is considered to be the second mother in the child’s life,
She can be approached by the students to share their happiness & sorrow in the struggle to strive.

THE WORLD MY EYES LONG TO SEE… my dream with respect to the world, something that I really long for...

The world outside makes me afraid
Which wastes its time in hate & regret.
Have we ever sat back to flash & think?
What life could be without any link??
Those few moments of joys & sorrows
Are enough to sprinkle confidence in another tomorrow!!
The fire of haterd & rage burn in our eyes; we can say,
In which our life goes a waste
Counting upon each & every day.
Spit out the hatred! Spit out the rage!
Lets live like a family & enter a new age!!
Something that’s different for each & everyone,
A world filled with peace, joy, love & fun.
The creation of the new nation,
Shall be a symbol of unity & determination.
Oh! How wonderful it would have been!!
If such a world could be ever seen!!

GOD, MY SOUL… Human nature in times of problems is to seek sympathy & solutions to our problems in the outside world but fail to see that the solution to our problems lie within ourselves in the very essence of our soul…

You are close to my heart,
But yet you seem to be so far,
You are with me but yet I find you apart,
You have to manage the circle of life, no matter where you are!
When creeps upon me the dark shadows of fear,
I try to assure myself that you’re always near.
People come & bask in your glory
But at the hour of problem they make a great story.
Every nook & corner you try to find,
A person who is just the kind…
You’re looking for,
But you wont be able to stand it for any more.
You wont find that person anywhere,
But don’t find yourself in great despair.
There’s one person you can turn to –
A soul that dwells in you & only you.
You feel – what a fool you have been?
To go in search for a person you have never seen!!
When a problem arises in you…
Don’t you find the solution deep within you too!

TITANIC… This is in the memory of the greatest wonder ship TITANIC & the sad event it faced due to human overconfidence, we see no matter how much science advances & develops…still nature over rules…

15th April 1912 was the chosen day –
When the unsinkable ship had a big obstacle in its way.
Such a beautiful dream had come to life
But all seemed to be destroyed in a swipe.
The dark shadows of dejection
Crept on the captains & deflated their inspirations.
The dream turned out to be a nightmare
It indeed creates a lull & is hard to bear.
The coup-de-grace of Titanic
Increased as the time ticked & ticked.
That night the freezing ocean of Atlantic
Gulped 1000s of people along with Titanic.
What a misery to face?
It was a sad case.
Even today the world walks down the memory lane
Of that wonderful & extravagantly beautiful ship in vain.
Its memory fills our eyes with tears
And fills human heart with countless fears.
That was the past, we live in the present
Hope in the future such disaster is absent.

THE SKY BY NIGHT… One night when I stood by my window & saw the starlit sky, I was immensely touched by the sight my eyes visioned…

As I sit back & gaze at the night sky,
I wish I could fly high, high & high
Up & down, swirling around,
And touch the sea & touch the ground.
Its amazing to see the carpet of stars,
I wish I could reach out to them although they seem to be far.
The cool, chilling breeze blows here & there,
I wish I could explore something unique in the boundless colony of air.
Inspite of being night, it appears to be bright…
What a wonderful picture? What a beautiful sight!!

INSTINCT OF LIVING… In this fast moving competitive world we are tied down to life with enormous frustration & our agitated mind generally try to dig into the instinct of living…

What an abominable sight?
Sitting all alone in the sheer dark night.
Not a flickering flame of hope,
You just can’t break free cause your tied with a rope.
Who are the devils that come your way?
Obstruct you from living one after each day!
Fires of sorrow, dejection & fear,
Set ablaze & approaches near & near.
You want to live you don’t desire to die
But the ferocious devils are after you, you just can’t reason out to the question why???

A WONDERFUL CAGE… A story of a child living in a disturbed family questions his capabilities & doubts the purpose of living circuming to a thought of ending the life…despite of the environment that we are brought up in I have observed that many times we youth have the same thoughts running in our mind & atleast at one junction of life find ourselves at a position swinging between life & frustration!!

I don’t know what it takes to live in a family
But I’m sure I don’t have the joy of experiencing it.
The happiness & sorrows come your way alternatively
But I don’t seem to feel it bit by bit.
In others eyes my image is faint,
It’s not good, as good as a saint.
I do not possess any capacities & capabilities,
No one tries to understand me & my qualities.
What on this Earth dear God you have created me?
To tolerate everything & experience what hell could be?
I’m not a source of joy to anyone,
No one is beside me to love & have fun.
Death is an act of cowardice
But it’s another phase of paradise.
The end to the life marks a beginning to this land,
This is a place where souls can peacefully stand.
But no one desires to reach this land at an early age
Cause they want to live in their body & remain in forever in that wonderful cage.

FLOWING THOUGHTS… The youth often get fizzled to share or even admit the flowing thoughts in ones mind…

I have many things to tell,
Many things to say-
What I have experienced?
Counting upon each & every day.
There are so many things to share,
But it’s not fine nor is it fair.
I don’t know if I possess the capacity
To face the life & to face the society.
The instinct to survive has kept me alive
And given me the courage to live my life.
It’s my life I have to live,
There’s nothing much to take or give.
Heavy loads of joys & sorrows
Can be multiplied & divided until tomorrow.

A VILLAGE LIFE… The hectic schedule of the city life makes me value, admire & cherish the village life…& I’m sure you too would do so…

A village life is so smooth
Here’s where the fragrant flowers grow & bloom.
The greenery around
And the scent of the ground.
The lashy blue sky
Is where the chirping birds fly!
As the Sun peeps out its head at the morning hour,
It disperses its ray wide & far.
Isn’t it a beautiful site to see?
There’s a heavenly experience that sets you free!
Free from the hustle & bustle of city life,
Free from the heavy loads of tension you carry day & night.
Such a peaceful atmosphere,
Makes your mind wonder there & here.
The image created is so wonderful!
God has filled colours that are meaningful.
There are different ways to view the nature,
That helps you in past, present & future.
It could be an inspiration,
Or a solution ruled over dejection.
Such a life one can live in a village’s arm,
No friend can ever purchase & no foe can ever harm.

GOD IS WITH ME… The youth must have belief & faith in everything that he thinks, says & does. He should realize that his success is credible to his efforts but there is an equal contribution by parents…nature & GOD…

You brought so many obstacles on my way
But finally you have shined some light on my days.
Those intolerable days of thoughts & pains,
Within seconds have been rewarded with valuable gains.
I agree my parents have contributed to my success
But I believe it is you, who has done the rest.
No matter where you are,
You have always helped me to manage my life so far.
You have gifted me with all the joys of my life,
And filled in me the enthusiasm & courage to strive.
My past was dark, my future is bright,
Give me the intellect to distinguish between wrong & right.
I shall become the person who you want me to be
And help me to keep the devils far from affecting me.
I’ve got the power to do it,
There’s nothing to be afraid of just be calm & sit.
No matter what the circumstances may be,
I wont give up cause God is with me.

A MATTER OF TRUST… It becomes very hard in this selfish, greedy world to trust anyone easily…thus one should have the right judgment in trusting a person…

There are many things about my life,
I would like to share but it’s risky to write.
I hope I have not mistaken in trusting you
And in guiding me through thick & thin & through difficulties too.
This is the era of jealousy & greed-
People are seen pulling one anothers leg for success in each & every field.
I don’t think you are set on a mission of this kind,
This is a big question mark in my mind.
The different thought & opinions of my parents, friends & relatives
Makes me so confused that I am unable to have my own unique way to live.
The contradictory theory of behavior possessed by humans & flashed in books
Gives this wonderful world a different look!
Whatever may be your view?
Just tell me are you sincere & true?
In going about our relation,
Remember not a single word should be leaked out cause that shall bring no happiness & satisfaction.
It is truly said-Intellect is associated with logic & heart with emotions,
Please don’t doom me in the dark shadows of dejection.
I have come across this a several time,
And I know how it feels to be the victim of this crime.
I have no right of judging everyone just because of the cruel attitude of one,
I believe you won’t turn into that caliber no matter what may come.
If you assure me that you’re by my side,
There shall be no wall of DOUBT that sets us apart & wide.
It would be nice if you keep a promise & be wise…
I believe The Matter if Trust shall never ever arise!!

FOR INDIA… Even after walking on the path of development & advancing as a developing country India hasn’t gained freedom in the true sense of the word…it is still caged in the shackles of social evils like poverty, population explosion, illiteracy & the youth fear to take initiative due to the ugly, corrupted political system…if we youth don’t work towards the upliftment of our country the dream of a peaceful & humane nation would remain unfulfilled…

Born & brought up in India-my mother land,
We have proudly gained our independence
But yet there are 1000s of people-
Who feel uncomfortable & do not feel free to stand!
Stand proudly & say-
India is independent today!!!
The city of paradise-Kashmir to the north,
The pure water of Indian Ocean to the south,
The hot deserts of Rajasthan to the west,
The fertile lands of West Bengal to the east,
It is from this land that originated intelligent scientists, monks & priests.
Their radiant principles & applications
Built the steps towards India’s destination.
The Indians have kept their tri-coloured flag flying high!
No matter which field, they’ve got to deal-
They put in assiduous efforts to reach the pinnacle with full enthusiasm & zeal.
Inspite of such variegated, rich, cultural heritage…
Today India seems to go off the track & the generation has entered a vague age.
Corruption peeps out its ugly head at every hour
Poverty has spread wide & far.
Disease & calamities spread their dark shadows
And refrains us from living in a better tomorrow.
The fire of communal riots set ablaze
People desire to live in peace but in not in such a miserable state.
Come on you children-the youth of today & the citizens of tomorrow
Initiate the innovative to suppress the bad & seedle the good
Then will the future of India have a different look.
A look that every man dreams for-
Peaceful, satisfied & contented India without the evils to rule no more.

IDENTITY… The concept of identity confuses me…is it the similarity that we possess or is the unique individuality that we inculcate in our persona…

What on this Earth we come for?
For what has our life been extended more?
Is it just to live our life & enjoy the comforts?
Or is it to carve our name & ultimately acquire our identity in this fast moving competitive world!
I’m so confused, I’m so perplexed-
Why the word “Identity” has such variant, profound meanings from the rest?
What is the meaning of IDENTITY?
Is it the sameness that individuals possess?
Or is it their individuality?
Different people have different ways of giving their definition
But the true fact is that they have posed a puzzle
And encircled the youth in tough situation.
Inspite of all odds
Today’s young generation trod,
Trod along the ups & downs of life
And reach the destination that they decide.
Identity is not just success, progress & fame,
Which carves in gold your glittering name.
There is something more that adds into your IDENTITY…
It is your attitude, behavior & you as a person contributing to humanity!

SET ME FREE… Many times at the wee hours of our problem we try to search for reasons & excuses to blame others for our state of agony but we fail to realize that we ourselves are responsible for it as it is our actions that lead to the consequences which we face…hence its very important to nourish goodness & compassion at the root level of thoughts & attitude & set ourselves free…

Far across in the open air,
I see something with great care.
What do I see looking around?
I can see that the sky touches the ground.
When GOD shelters the shining Moon in his arms
Then do we see the red, bright, dazzling Sun.
But out of all the darkest problems that could be?
I pose a question-What about me?
Where in this life have I gone wrong-
Ain’t I good enough? Ain’t I strong?
Nothing in my life seems to be fine & right,
I see my future having a pathetic sight.
Tell me dear Lord whom should I blame?
Me, myself or should I continue with the game.
The game of life that I have been playing since years
With no one at my side in the puddle of tears.
When you cant afford to trust people closer to you,
Just rationalize how in the case of a stranger will it ever turn out to be true!
I have just stepped out in the competitive world,
And I say that life appears to be complicated,
I guess I need to be a bit bold.
I had been offered life & I took the chance
But I believe I have not seen life at a closer glance.
I need no one, no one needs me…
That’s the way I think I should set myself free!!

WHO IS THERE… This is in the quest for justice to GOD for the many thousands of people who are encircled with problems. We need to keep in our mind that in life every phase is governed by the law of impermanence but the quest for true way of life & working for the benefit of humanity & mankind is permanent throughout…

In my darkest hour,
In the heaviest shower,
No one was by my side
But I was left alone with tears in my eye.
The rays of hot Sun incident was the sight that I could see
I found the hot sands of desert swirling around me.
The sweat trickling down my cheek
Not a single drop of water to quench
My thirst could I ever seek.
My eyes wondered over a great distance
And in a fraction of seconds I took a glance
I was engulfed in a great storm
I saw the desert disappear & I did not feel warm.
I felt the cool strong breeze suppressing me in taking a step ahead of me
I felt very very cold
Which was good enough to deflate my hopes.
There I was standing in the middle of an unknown, mysterious land
Waiting for someone who could reach out to me a helping hand.
As and when time passed by
I began to decay & was set on a journey to die.
And finally when the time came
I collapsed & put an end to my life, a complicated game.
With a radiant feeling enlightened in my heart…
I was free from the fear of depart.
There were so many missions that I was ambitiously set to try…
But now I was free from hurry & worry with no reason to cry.
There above under the shelter of that great Lord,
I questioned his justice for other people like me in the world.
Then echoed his voice in the vibrating room of heaven-
“ Believe me if there’s no one with you,
Remember I shall always be there for thee! “

CRUCIAL TIME… This is a poem I wrote when we were threatened of Pakistan invasion at Kargil…

Today I see the world turn upside down,
Tears in eye & faces that frown.
Why can’t the magnified enmity between Pakistan & India end?
Which is the big wall that stops the 2 from being friends?
I guess they just can’t digest their fiasco over Kashmir.
What a true spirit of Pakistani do they reveal?
Just by going over & creating great havoc in Kargil?
God has gifted them with the best of army, arms & ammunitions.
But just have a glance at the way they handle themselves to achieve their cruel intentions.
Don’t they feel ashamed to be set on such nasty missions!!!
How immature & irrational could they be?
To prepare themselves & impose an attack suddenly?
Our brave soldiers shouldered with the responsibility to protect our Mother Land
Went ahead to obstruct the capture of Kargil to those cruel hands.
There were showers of bullet in the air,
And thousands of soldiers shed their blood without care.
Just as the fire spreads in the forest
The situation intensifies & it is our soldiers who are put to test.
Slowly the time arrives when soldiers do not have a morsel of food to take in,
And we people living safely out here find ourselves in vain to make out contribution.
How much eve we contribute shall be less
Cause it is the soldiers who are risking their life & doing their best.
It is them who are fighting out there at this crucial time
It is at the cost of their life that thousands of people are fine.
Every country agrees that the Pakistani army should go back
But I don’t think Pakistan will withdraw the irrepressible attacks.
Let us salute to the soldiers for their courage & bravery
I am proud to be an Indian & I believe that it is the truth which shall ultimately gain victory.

FREE FROM DESIRE… Position & possession is the yardstick that measures the success or rather the identity of a person as of which we desire such things through every walk of our life but fail to realize that it is the nature of our heart & soul that is the very thoughts, character, morale & attitude towards life that counts the most & would truly benefit in uplifting India to a height of success where no other country would reach…our diversity should be our strength & the secularism should be pampered…thus keeping our head high with our tri-coloured flag flying…we would set a live example of “Unity in Diversity” .

I want this & I want that,
Are the fatuous demands we crave at.
The treasures of riches & fame,
And the pleasures of happiness, contentment is all that we try to gain.
It is a fatal transition we have entered…
Building the mansion of progress upon the sorrows of the withered.
How could humanity haul such an insane percussion in this sweet melody of life?
Aren’t they aware of the rhythmic principles that we need to strike?
All religions have their own say
But it is the basic principles of life expressed in different ways.
Do we abide these principles, practice them & generalize?
Have we seedled the exotic breeds of love, peace & sacrifice?
Why does this ego rise so high when it is suppose to drown?
Haven’t we got the ability to bring a smile on faces that frown?
Each one of us has the potentials & every fair means to reach out for our destination!
Then why do people engulf themselves into such a miserable premonition!
How sad it is to see people trying to outsmart each other in every possible field…
How immature could one be? To prove oneself distinguished from others boosting inequality.
What does this human behavior indicate…
…That we have no place for good values to accommodate.
Can’t there be a revolution?
Can’t there be a change?
Can’t we build a wonderful nation?
Can’t we enter an intellectual & spiritual age?
Where is the need to feel so great?
When the greatest Lord dwells in your heart & opens the gate.
The gate of those mysterious, dormant emotions
Which we need to enkindle in every relation.
We need a purpose to live,
Not just drift our time in the job of take & give.
All that we have got to do…
Is help the needy, old, lepers & poor too
Henceforth we shall build the steps towards the upliftment of India as a nation
If all the youths join their hands & cooperate, there is nothing that can stop us from reaching our destination.

PARADISE… We humans have struggled our way to find true happiness but it has always been impermanent…our quest for eternal happiness & peace continues to find that wonderful paradise…it is important to realize that our humbleness & compassion would make India a true paradise to live in…

There are problems here
There are problems there
Wherever you see
There are problems everywhere.
Youngsters, elders & the old
With the approach of problems do grow cold.
But with no escape, no way to go
They face their life without hesitation & never feel low.
People are always in search-
Where peace could be found?
In which corner of the world?
How long have we to wait for the secret of peace to unfold?
The paradise that we need to find
Is the idealistic place that shall content, satisfy & bring peace to our mind.
The light of compassion enkindled within our vision
Which protects each & everyone, without exception.
When people shall embed the exotic principles of love, peace & sacrifice
Only then shall God gift us with the wonderful paradise.
The wide & broad area of land
Covered with nothing but fine crystals of sand.
In the wind sways the carpet of thousands of green lashy tree
And the sky filled with chirping birds born to be free.
The kingdom of animal live as they please on this ground
And the fragrance of fruits & flowers spread all around.
The blue green ocean washes the feet of this land.
This beautiful image of paradise helps us to go to the depth & gives us the complete chance to understand.
To understand the balance between joys & sorrows,
Without which our life would be unknowingly hollow.
Lets be true to ourselves & come out of our own disguise
And cherish each & every moment in the wonderful Paradise!

FOR A FRIEND LIKE YOU… This is to my troubled elder friends who find comfort in my words…I cant see anyone in tears…I want to see everyone happy…with a smile…

I do not want to hear you cry,
I wouldn’t feel nice to see a tear in your eye…
The endless nights you shed your tears
In the name of problems & countless fears.
No matter whether you stay far or near,
Always remember you have a true & understanding friend out here!
It was our luck that in this journey of life we met
It was much great to experience the foundation of friendship & mutual understanding between the two of us set.
It’s a pleasure to come across an individual like you,
Truthful, understanding & emotional too.
You prove to be a good person & a friend!
If the friendship is true it shall never end.
Although I may be very much younger to you…
I can prove to be a good friend-loving, understanding & supportive too.
In this nasty world where the meaning of love & trust is becoming compact day by day…
It was an ecstatic moment to discover a friend like you behind the mysterious stranger in such a wonderful way!!

DESERT ROSE… Here I have compared the state of a neglected youth to a wild caliber of rose growing over the desert land…

The scorched heat upon me shines
I am surrounded by nothing but sandstorms all the time.
No one to take good care of me…
No one by my side…
I was left all alone with tears in my eye
All that I could see were crystals of sand
No sign of water & no sign of humans on that mysterious land.
There was nothing I could do but stay still all day & al night.
Until one fine day a young innocent boy came within my sight
He had come walking, a long way…
But when his eyes fell on me…
I could see a smile on his face sway.
I belonged to a wild caliber of plants
Inspite of which this young lad held me gently in his hands & began to dance.
He was astounded to touch every soft petal of mine
And my sweet wild fragrance had captured his mind.
He watered me & took good care of me…
But it was his tender innocence, love & touch that bloomed me & made me happy!

ALL LOST… There is one person in our life without whom this life would be incomplete…this poem goes out for that singular person in my life that I would spend the rest of my life with….

Career lost, something lost.
Goals lost, much lost.
Ambition lost, all lost.
Guider lost, something lost.
Supporter lost, much lost.
Motivator lost, all lost.
Wealth lost, something lost.
Honour lost, much lost.
Courage lost, all lost.
Attraction lost, something lost.
Liking lost, much lost.
Love lost, all lost.
Character lost, something lost.
Self-esteem lost, much lost.
Identity lost, all lost.
Understanding lost, something lost.
Trust lost, much lost.
Faith lost, all lost.
Mind lost, something lost.
Soul lost, much lost.
Heart lost, all lost.
Blood lost, something lost.
Life lost, much lost.
But YOU lost, all lost.

HOPE…A RAY OF LIGHT… Every friend of mine has been like an angel teaching me valuable lessons of life & motivating me to believe in the goodness of this beautiful life…

You don’t know what you have done
In my dark gloomy nights you have been like a shining bright Sun.
You have been like a silver-lined cloud in my life
Evoking the hope in me to struggle hard with confidence to study & strive.
You do not know what a wonderful, valuable & treasurable gift that you have given me
You gave me trust & true friendship at an awful moment in which, in strangers I can rarely see.
You gave me that warm shoulder & supported me at a crucial & depressive span of time
Your friendship is one that I cherish coz humanity hasn’t died & I feel really happy about it, and makes me feel good & fine.
Its so astounding that the one’s you truly love don’t understand the essence of the very good souls that dwell in the body,
And we people like fools nourish the relationship in the name of love, gently & tenderly.
The kind of true & sincere love we bear, they actually do not deserve it!
Not in bulk, not a piece, not an ounce, not even a single bit!!
To find helpful, supportive & true friendz like you with good will & wishes is very rare…
At a time when I could look upto you no one it was you who held my hand & rescued me from my agony & despair.
I owe a lot to you in this pure relationship of friendship…
With the highest regard & respect I have for you I promise you that even if the world ends this friendship will never ever perish!!

BLACK…the colour of life. The movie BLACK inspired me to write this poem…

Why do we treat the colour black as a symbol of hatred, enemity & disgust…
The perception of the meaning behind a colour depends entirely on our attitude & us.
As a seed in the womb of our mother…with our eyes closed & actions speaking louder than our words,
The colour that flashes in the eye is BLACK…before we step into this wonderful world.
Could not BLACK symbolize the epoch of growth & development…
Why doesn’t the mentality change to perceive it as a symbol of elegance?
As we walk through the ups & downs in life,
Our eyes tend to close when we pray when we cry…
It is because the most beautiful things cannot be seen with an open eye.
Why is BLACK the chosen ink flashed over every, be it holy or informative books?
Making it readable & easy to understand as we gaze through every page & look.
Would a student proudly admit BLACK to be a symbol of knowledge?
Does it even feel shameful to wear the BLACK robe, as one becomes a graduate?
As one meditates & dissolves into the silence of introspection…
The BLACK…colour deepens with a red tinge enlightening you towards the brightness of ultimate salvation.
BLACK…is a journey that we travel as a child…
A journey from dark to the bright light.
BLACK…is the colour that wades us through space & time…
Marking our growth & development in terms of knowledge & ultimate salvation through every walk of life.

DIGGING INTO THE PAST … Here is a story of a very close friend of mine who lives in a disturbed family & how she struggles with her agony, feelings & attitude towards her family not with an aim to sympathize with her but to reveal that Reality Bites…many times we feel that no one faces a grave problem than we do…but there are 1000s of people who are in even much graver problems than we are in…but still confidently & squarely take life as it comes…we should drive inspiration from such people…that would be my only message through this poem!

Why does the dark past creep upon me & flash in my eye?
Why does it negatively influence me & makes me cry?
Why does the past cripple me so badly?
Pushing me into depression completely!
When the thoughts of my past waver in my mind, I begin to fear…
It brings back an agonizing pain in my heart & from my eyes rolls down a tear.
We have no right to choose our parents but its them with whom majority of our life we stay
I have come across bad weathers, bad seasons, bad people, bad friends, bad relatives but I haven’t heard of bad parents any day…
I haven’t heard of bad parents any day…
But unfortunately I have been paradoxically lucky to experience -
What it would be to be sheltered under them in an ironical way…
Would it be unethical of me to criticize my parents for actually what they are?
But how just would I be to myself in living my life constantly surrounded by cold war?
Would it be wrong of me to raise my voice against this merciless crime?
Wherein one appreciates less, cares less whereas other evaluates the equation of give & take all the time.
Its like they have eyes but cannot see,
They have a heart but cannot feel,
They have ears but cannot hear,
They have a mind but cannot distinguish between right & wrong that disguises their fear.
I have seen that parents play the most important role in a child life & guide them through every situation,
It is said they always aim at the goodness & benefit of the child with full confidence without any hesitation.
What if parents stand in perfect contradiction?
Should we judge them to be bad or ignorant?
Should we swallow the bitter pain & let our feelings remain forever dormant!
What would be the great use in standing & fighting against them?
It will only cause us pain & bring the family to shame.
What would be the difference if we behave like the way they do?
Would it free us from the pain of an imperfect family & let us live life peacefully all through?
Can we turn our backs to our responsibilities & run away,
We would live a life of guilt & repentance every single day.
Infact let the dark past have a positive influence on you…
Feel lucky that you have learnt to live life in a harder way,
Giving you the strength to fight life independently…
Feel confident that time & again you fell but you never lost hope,
Stood up & took life as it came.
Feel elated that you have discovered the mysteries of life in a unique way…
And no one can stop you from living your life independently
All by yourself on the path of compassion & humanity
With the destiny to enlightenment
Your body may die but you’ll live until eternity!!!

RUNNING AWAY… Another poem inspired from the same close friend of mine…describing the fight between her responsibilities, compassion & agony…it is very easy for us to run away from problems but the greatest challenge in life is to face it & confront the problems as they come or rather convert our hurdles into our strength!

If I wish I can turn my back & run away,
Run away from the bitter truths of life that I face everyday.
Living in a place where I don’t have the freedom to think, say & do as I feel
What’s my fault in giving others happiness prime importance with tears in my eyes & feelings within my heart I seal.
I can get married, settle down & be least bothered of my parents who have caused me immense pain & agony…
But this compassionate heart of mine…
Guilts even with the thought of hurting someone, the satisfaction of a harmonious life reflects only when I see others smile…
My weakness is that I am ruled by my heart & uncontrolled confusing thoughts flow in my mind,
I need to strike a balance between the compassionate feelings & intellectual thinking, moulding it into a fine caliber that is of a rare kind.
A perfect coordinator between what I think, say & do is something that I work on day & night,
But the dark clouds affect me negatively bringing me into a state of fright.
I fear in stepping ahead & feel the urge to turn my back & run away,
These are just momentary feelings that stop me from achieving my dreams…
I need to curb them & face life as it comes every single day!!

GROWING WILD COMPASSIONATELY… I have truly been able to empathize with youths who have been troubled by the disputable relationships between their parents & many times I feel as if I have been like them too…many times in life I have found myself handicapped in conveying my feelings & thoughts across to my parents, I feel as if I have & would continue to grow wild compassionately…

Feels like a wild cactus growing on the desert sand,
Devoid of culture, deprived of love with no perfect equation of family to understand…
Lucky are those children who walk on the path holding their parents hand as they guide,
Luckier are those orphans, who walk on the path with no one but GOD by their side,
Luckiest are those who have parents but still are orphans-
They don’t know which path to walk & hence they are left to choose the middle intermediate path between the 2 extremes…
Standing on a deserted land, being clueless about the realities of life with mindless principles & dreams.
The child lives an illusion under the shelter of neutral parents, with improper judgment in distinguishing between wrong & right.
The child plays with fire he learns it will burn,
The child plays with ice he learns it is cold,
With every situation in life if the child imbibes & inculcates the good…the strength in his magic would turn even a dry leaf into gold.
Growing & progressing in the right manner will strongly influence the good human in him…
Blossoming a cactus metamorphosing it into a subtle, tranquil & harmonious lotus within.
And although like a lotus the child grows wildly in a dirty filthy pond or lake…
He doesn’t lose the beauty, the innocence, the charm, the right to grow wild compassionately with extraordinary grace.

DREAMS… I am sure when it comes to make a choice about your career, many times our parents, relatives & friends have a great influence in taking our decision rather than we ourselves pursuing our dreams…I have only thing to say to the youth…life is full of compromisements & adjustments…pursue your dreams & interest in every walk of life or even if your compromising with the situations…see that you take an interest in whatever you are doing…cause I think nothing goes a waste…you can turn a new leaf in the field which you don’t like by simply provoking & working dedicatedly in cultivating the interest & love towards it! In life one never gets what he wants inspite of which one carries on with a cheerful smile hunting out for new dreams to reach out in life…

When I saw broken homes…I dreamt of being an architect or go for interiors…
But I was told that it’s a profession that won’t take you to places & treated it to be inferior.
What was the harm in making an effort to turn the 4 walls of a house into home- a place where after all the tiresome hours at work in the ugly world you come to find peace & rest,
I was stopped to think about it any further…thinking that I had something better at which I could prove myself the best!
When I saw so many complexities involved in human behavior & psychology…
I dreamt of being a psychiatrist in order to understand troubled people clearly & completely…
But I was told that rendering my services to such I would go crazy & besides arts was always looked down upon & it was said that it wasn’t my cup of tea.
Unfortunately I once again halted myself in this direction & believed my well wishers blindly…
When I saw corruption & injustice flowing intricately through every marrow & bone…
I dreamt of taking up law so that I could fight for justice & truth in an ugly world, which has been torn.
I could empathize with people for their agitation towards the disguise given to the wonderful Indian constitution…
I use to look upto Dr.Ambedker & do so even now but had to let go off those dreams coz I was told that I was too timid & fragile to handle such situations.
I was pushed into science with a hope to become a doctor…but I landed up with microbiology…
Time & again I was unable to gain interest & at every step wanted to turn to my dreams that I firmly believed in completely!!
I was pushed to a higher level of post graduation in the subject…
I experienced the utmost professional life to an extent that I wanted to quit but it was something beyond my capacity to reject!!
After spending unclear & unstable 5yrs of my life studying this subject…
I can’t deny the fact that now I have developed immense interest…
I have taken education as a miniscule tool to earn some degrees against my name…
Taken it for granted to just get a job & earn some respect & fame!!
Today as I wish to study more & get immersed into my goodwill to harness the knowledge gained for the benefit of humanity & mankind, to do something exceptionally unique for this world…
The overall responses that I get to see is that compromise & adjust with true dreams coz after all we are normal human beings not great people…that’s what I am supposedly made to believe & that is what exactly I have always been told!!
If I should really let go or will I ever be able to let go off such dreams is really hard to say…
I would remain clueless & will always be so if I compromise on my DREAMS in every singly way!!